I used to think how life is very unfair and how sad it is, when people come and go.

We are like bus drivers and from the moment you started driving your bus, you know that some passengers would alight soon, some others would board your bus at later stops and there would be some who stay throughout the entire journey. But the ones that leave me the deepest impressions are those who stand at the bus stops and watch me drive by them.. Have you ever wondered why those people are not boarding your bus? Are they heading to a different destination, or are they choosing to take a different path to get to the same destination?

Life in university has not been the most ideal one thus far. Good enough I suppose? We take many things for granted all the time. Our health, our time, our parents' concern, our friends, and even ourselves. I feel that we do not see the good in people and the good in ourselves because we are always concerned with all the negative stuffs. I am learning to see the good in people, and the good in myself. 


Finally, I figured this out.
Those who chose to leave may have reached their destination before you did, those who chose to stay may have decided to change a destination, and those standing at the bus stops and watching you, might be those who really wanted to be here, with you.

I have so much to say about us, about how I love seeing you everyday, about how I want to hug you all day and feel so loved being in your arms. 

Woke up feeling kinda blue, despite having a good time last night with some colleagues at Chevrons to sing karaoke. Guess it's time I get productive. Two more papers to go, and then I will be having hell of a good time in Taiwan with sister and boyfriend for a good 20 days!


Sometimes, I just wonder if we are all trapped in this cycle of making friends, losing them, making new friends, losing them.. and it's just so tough. Even though I know we still treasure each other so much and there's countless of things to say to you each time we start a conversation (once in a blue moon), and you still mean so much to me. But it's so saddening to know that you're doing so well without me, and it sucks to see how you are doing well and happy without me- 'cuz I remember we once said we can't live without each other, and life wouldn't be complete without each other. Dear friend, why is it so that things change and you changed? I miss you.

When will I ever learn to be consistent in my work? :<

I'd go on my knees and ask if you are happier this way. Is this all meant to be? 

How often do we stop, and ask ourselves if we're happy?

Everyday I wake up, I feel thankful I'm still alive, that I can hear the alarm ring, my hamsters running on wheels, little angel runs in and smile, my dog scratching the door. I raise my head a little, look at the clock, gasp and realize I woke up later then expected. Ahhhhh, 'I'd better get off bed' but I turn around hug my bolster and adjust the pillow, I feel happy being in my messy and cozy room, and I am glad that I wake up to a new day yet again. 

I finally drag myself out of bed, greet my mom Morning and take a look at my phone, look at Boyfriend's text, girlfriends texts and how most of it are filled with emotions and ohhh ahhh wowwww. hahaha finally decided i should wash up, look into the mirror, ah, think I look tired. Get changed, ahhhh i think i gained weight OH NO SAD FOR A MOMENT. hmm feel hungry, go to the refrigerator, grab chocolate and YUM happy again.

Life's so simple, it is so simple to be happy. You just have to learn to appreciate and love yourself <3

Been a while since I stayed up this late, to mug. English test, 10%, I would not have bothered as much, if not for the fact that I haven't been doing my readings :( 

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Been a while since you came around and check if I am doing alright, ask for some company and beg for comfort.. why do all these seem so familiar, and why does it get me all upset again? We need to stop doing things out of familiarity, we need to stop thinking. Most of all, we need to keep this distance.

Because I am happy, and more than just that- I feel loved by a boy who will, always, be there. 



If we loved again, would you love me right?

we should not wait for the world, the world should wait for us.

Had an awesome start for August!

Went Butter with Hwans and her friends on Wed! Had tons of fun, wished we stayed a bit longer and had a little more booze but nonetheless, was good enough for a nice party :)  been a long time since the two of us had so much fun :D


Pretty bffl <3
(Wooooyeahhhh we're meeting for candlelight dinner tomorrow!)


KKKKKKKK <3



:D Heh heh. K is busy with his friends on a saturday night and I am stuck at home cuz I am ill :(


And this is Phyllis and Eve! favorite pengyouz! We went Ikea to have meatballs and I brought little Angel along hurray! (They say I look like the motherrrrr)



School is starting next week! kinda excited to see everyone again :)