At times like this, I cannot help but wish I was better with words.




Hello Bird and Cat, look at how much we have changed! Okay but some things will really stay the same. Bird you are as retarded as ever, and i think ten years, maybe even twenty years down the road we will still laugh at your silly actions (: Rmb Surf&Sweat? the sun and the rain and all the laughter we had. that was really one of the most memorable times I had with the two of you (: Bird I will never forget how you said you hated me for always giving the stupid angsty i hate the world look and you didnt like cedar girls like me. haha but see, how things change? Cat i rmb you as the chungcheng table tennis girl that existed but i dont know who hahaha. thankyou for being quiet, but noisy too (:




Hello soccer girls, I rmb our time in sweat and mud. I miss you guys very much. WAPAW and our silly happy cards.At times I blame myself for making decisions without giving more considerations. I think the few of you for making my one year in soccer so memorable. I miss kicking balls during breaks and before training. I kinda secretly wished we could meet up someday.





Haha omg joleen i forgot when we took this weird photo with glasses i think it was national day and we went to skypark to chill! Skypark used to be our favourite hang out. Rmb our little things in life that makes us feel happy? seeing ants drowning in water and weird imaginations of having trees growing on our arms (: (: you've been so awesome and i look forward to many many many more years of friendships with you. Beeeeee! I love that photo i dont know why haha (: those sundays spent together were really, fulfilling. thankyou for everything (: you've been such a sweet friend, yknow? Anyway let us go chill after As and i will wear that pretty white dress that the two of you bought for me! (: All the best, lovely two.


OMG HOW CAN I FORGET OUR LOVELY UK TRIP! okay cat has been asking me to upload the photos haha omg i havent uploaded them and it's almost a year already! UK was so much fun and it was so cold i wore like ten million clothes every day! bano you look so cute in that photo you were eating! and omg mr G (love love love him) crashed our photo during field trip! so funny! ah i miss eating and eating and having fun together. we spent like 12 days ogether almost 24/7!! I think i will never forget my UK trip, so unforgettable really. <3 i dont think there will ever another chance like this, so i really thank god that i spent my 12 days in uk with such great friends. and I promise i will upload photos after A levels! :P cat, i miss your hot chocolate! thanks for being such a great buddy dugint the trip, would not have been the same yknow/ (:


PW!!! <3 hello shiqi sijia shan bird charles(not in this photo). I miss pw times, and i am so glad we went through it all together! i love random times like braiding our hair and laughing and laughing at chan and bird. rmb or stupid skit that we were all bears and shan is a panda or sthg like that? haha ok yay luma mufleh ftw! (: One family unbroken! i hope we will look back and think about our happy moments of PW PW PW PW PW PW PW. aren't yall glad that it's over? (:



I feel smarter taking this photo :P AYE hello my fav smart people, am so glad i found out we could clique hahahaha. But honestly, thankyou for going through so much with me recently. and thankyou for being so understanding (: eve i think you are so pretty and thankyou for being my heart to heart talk buddy (: i am excited to spend time with you after A levels and the many more years ahead. Hello 985 bus mate i will miss taking bus home with you! our west side story will always be in my heart okay so gay i know (: thankyou for being so angsty and i enjoy our angsty moments lol. RAWK ON SMART PPL! ♥
 

But we will all pull through.

It's scary how you keep running away from the ugly things in life but in the end, you get to the end and realise it's all back to the same old nightmare. "nothing much". This two words kill, and hurt so bad.

I spent the day thinking of what I should do with what I'm left with. it's the last lap of this journey, and with the amount of time and energy left, i need to get things done fast. In order to do that I have to take away distractions. Distractions including emotions and words people put in my head. It's becoming a habit for me to give the same reason for this long war we've been fighting. it's like what I study in History. Cold war: a period of heightened tensions, stopping short of actual war. (okay, that's the accurate definition of Cold War that I managed to memorise haha).

As I made a wish hoping this weekend could last forever, I heard you say "We will face monday together. I am here." 

 

I've learnt that not everything is equally mutual. Sometimes, I wish I can just not bother anymore.



12 days to prelims, I'm suddenly afraid. I don't want it to be another mess.

Tell me why am I doing here at this hour? To seek assurance, yes that's what I've been looking for.

School's tough, everyone is complaining. But life's like this. I hate Math so much, I cannot believe it. I am still trying to get myself to start practicing Math questions, like Integration. I hate it so much! (Sense my anger & no I am not angsty!) I am glad I have my classmates to get me through. I think i wouldn't have gone to school so often if not for them.

& Fellow, if you are reading, I want to say thankyou. You've been a great friend (:

On a lighter note, I LOVE THE VERONICAS!!!! ♥♥♥

Late nights like these remind me of you, and this is bad. I'm sorry for how I treated you, and us.

It's past 1am, I should be in bed by now.

I was crunching on my Salt & Pepper Pringles, blasting The Veronicas, feeling angry about the amount of undone work I have but still trying to convince myself "It's okay, I shall rest today and start tomorrow" when I read this on MSN News headlines:

"The death toll so far in Taiwan stands at 15, with 55 missing and 32 hurt, since Typhoon Morakot struck the island Friday and remained in the area over the weekend before crashing into eastern China, state-run China Daily reported."

I hover my mouse over the link that says Video, and I saw images of how people, houses and things were swept away by the huge amounts of water. I saw images of people crying and moaning over the lost of their kids/parents. I saw people dying.

My heart ached. They were right- Life's not fair.

I guess we always are, but that's what life is all about. Getting in and out of shit? But if all else don't matter, I still have people willing to pull me through.




&&&! Angel is so cute, I LOVE HER SO MUCH ♥♥♥